At the beginning of a year, I’ve never really sat down and tried to think of a word that I needed to take to prayer or focus on for that year. However, thinking back on 2018, a word that comes to mind is “trust”. The year I was supposed to graduate college, I found myself in a really weird place where nothing in my life looked how I thought it would. I really had to learn to trust in God and His plan. This is something I constantly struggled with (let’s be honest I still do sometimes) before 2018, but the struggle intensified as graduation approached. Throughout the year I continued to pray for trust in God’s plan again and again and at some point I began to accept that He did have a plan for me that was greater than anything I could have imagined. But the issue was, I lacked patience. I would think to myself “Well I know God has a plan for me and maybe if I do this it will speed it up”. I trusted that He had a plan but I didn’t want to trust in His timing. Obviously if His plan is perfect, then His timing is perfect too, but in my head I felt like I could somehow speed things along.
Towards the end of 2018 and beginning of 2019 a word that kept popping up for me in prayer was “Patience”. I realized that in so many ways I was lacking in patience. I truly believed that God did have a perfect plan for me, but I didn’t want to have to wait for it. I also teach middle schoolers and patience is something that I can always use more of because they really know how to test your patience. The more I have been praying for patience, in God’s timing of my life, the more at peace I feel with where I am right now in His plan for me. I really don’t know what is coming next but I know that I need to embrace where I’m at and stop trying to “skip ahead” to the next chapter of my life. I’m really excited to see how my perspective changes over this year and I’m looking forward to whatever fruits might come out of this prayer for patience!
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